Posts by fresh prince of ohio

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

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thanks hortensia. i certainly hope so.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

losingit, yes, i'm well aware of the dynamic that played out in the relationship. It was that dynamic that eventually burned me out and made me realize, this isn't what I want. I can't save her. I can't be everything for her. I can't rescue her. I can't carry her. I can't protect her from every nasty thing in the world. I want someone who holds me accountable, who meets me as an equal.

She comes from a family where her mother didn't work and was completely dependent on her father. I also come from a family where my dad was in a totally dominant position. I've learned a lot about myself from this relationship. At her expense, to a certain extent. But I think she learned from it too.

Just a sad situation all around.

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What do JW's make of Early Christians?

by ForbiddenFruit in

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There's a staggering level of pure delusion in that illustration. I just defies description.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

I recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.

She is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future. I gave her some money.

The guilt I am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing. She had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply. She is an intensely emotional person, I would give her an armchair diagnosis of having major depressive/borderline tendencies. I just never loved her the same way she did me, although I did come to care for her.

I felt like I was her protector, in some ways, her savior in this cruel and unforgiving world. So there was this whole existential aspect of the relationship.

I fear that she may lose all hope and decide to end her life.

She had me on this PEDESTAL. It was like, she was so amazed that I was ever in a relationship with HER. So, it never felt like a meeting of equals. And now that I've left her, her interpretation is that she's been rejected cold by the most wonderful amazing man in the world (i'm really not all that).

She is reasonably intelligent in most respects, but has a certain naivete about things that doesn't serve a single woman living in a big city very well.

She has deep-rooted self esteem issues, had a traumatic childhood, and has a horrifying existential fear that 'nobody will ever love her'. Thing is, I DID love her. And she has people in her life who DO love her. But I loved her more in a friendly, caring way that comes with knowing a person over a long period of time.

The relationship became quite toxic towards the end, with lots of fights. I found her exhausting to be in a relationship with - she was always having some kind of crisis. The resentment and tension built up to the point where cruel words were spoken by me to her on more than one occasion.

One of the biggest challenges i had all along was that I didn't find her sexually attractive. At least not very much. We did have sex, but usually only once every couple of weeks. Always initiated by me. She wasn't capable of spontaneous displays of affection towards me - just too fearful and nervous. I think the lack of sexual attraction was because she just never carried herself with any confidence or verve. On our first date, I walked into the restaurant and saw her (we met online) and she looked at me with this fearful expression, which was an expression that i became all too familiar with and exhausted by over the years. I learned later that she was certain that I was going to take one look at her and turn around and walk right out, if that tells you anything about her confidence.

Anyway, I don't know what more to say. I feel like I may end up going back to her, even though I know how unhappy I was in the relationship, especially over the past year. But the guilt and anguish I'm experiencing over leaving her is just too much.

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WHy Have You Turned YOur Back On The Messiah

by cassuk11 in

ok so you got out of the watchtower society after discerning it was false.

what is amazing is how many have turned their back on the king or was it they had no faith in the first place and the spiritual food they received did not help them stand upon a rock.

jesus the christ your saviour is a living breathing being with emotions.

fresh prince of ohio

Why have oyu turned your back when its conveneint for you.

The (unfortunately all too typical) accusatory language is not appreciated. Life is a struggle for everyone.

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What do JW's make of Early Christians?

by ForbiddenFruit in

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neonmadman, is that from a WTS publication?

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What do JW's make of Early Christians?

by ForbiddenFruit in

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The WTS would have JWs believe that the early Christians went door-to-door in groups of two and read to people from papyrus scrolls.

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On Jerkhovas Witlesses, Kingdumb Hells, Filthful & Discreet Slavebugger and Pio-sneering . .

by nicolaou in

i detest this type of posting.

it's only my opinion of course and so long as forum rules aren't breached we're all free to express ourselves as we see fit.

doesn't mean i have to like it though.. honestly, can't you make your point without this kind of infantile name calling?

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I love the aposta-lexicon that has developed over the years to replace the insider JW-speak. I find a lot of the terms hilarious, and look forward to new ones (Pious-sneer being a fairly recent addition). And WT Wizard, you go man.

If a JW comes here and is shocked by it, then eff em. Go back to the kingdumb hell, and enjoy your washtowel controlled life.

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My Jimi Hendrix experience

by confusedandalone in

as a 13 year old a friend of mine had a jimi hendrix record and told me if we play it backwards that they said words.

he bought the record from a shop not far from where we lived and we were the only family that still had a record player.

so we played the record and i spun it backwards andnothing happened.

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Makes me glad I wasn't raised JW. My Catholic parents were crazy in their own way, but they didn't put big restrictions on the music i listened to.

As a young teen I ordered Jimi's Smash Hits album in one of those 10 cassettes for a penny deals they used to put in the Sunday newspaper. It was a bit of a random selection; i was only vaguely familiar with a couple of his songs and wasn't that much into them.

Well, as it turned out, of those 10 tapes, the Hendrix one got played far more than the others. I still enjoy listening to those same songs in the same order that they appeared on that tape.

BTW "Gypsy Eyes" is a great lesser-known Hendrix song. I'd recommend Stepping Stone as well.

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Are You Upset My Miley Cyrus' Performance On MTV Awards?

by minimus in

i'm not, even a little bit and i don't understand what the outrage is all about..

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thanks adamah:)